Everyone around me knows what is going on in this world. Everyone around me wants it to change too. We grew up with our parents' nostalgia for the past and our bleak and foreboding realization of the future. All of our parents' generation thinks that we are the generation for change, that we will stand up for environment and civil rights and diplomatic foreign policy but no. I find that extremely hard to believe because everyone is too tried by it. I'm not even twenty and I'm weighed down by this empty feeling. I think it's called hopelessness.
The inability to do anything right without starving for having no job, being put in jail for something or other, or having your house searched without a warranty, your phones tapped because you came across a certain website, or even being killed, such as in the case of Bobby Kennedy, and Martin Luther King Jr. Did anyone noticed how those kind of people stopped happening? We're subdued and afraid. I want to change this goddamned government but I don't want to die. Fuck, it's not even about that, I just don't know what to do. i don't know how to rally. I don't think anyone will listen. I don't think anyone will care. Standing out means getting shot, they say.
For all that I am learning in class, I cannot, for the life of me, connect it to reality. I know the power of nonviolent protest, I also know that it wasn't only protesting that ended Vietnam but economically, the US needed to save itself.
I know that we're in so much fucking debt right now that borrowing money from China to "boost" the economy is like the snail and the recession that is heading our direction is the misguided foot that will smash us.
How does money even mean anything anymore. It's all credit. What does money mean if we are 2.4 trillion dollars in debt and still the most "powerful" country? What does money mean if no one can support themselves on minimum wage and are forced to live in rented homes? They never own anything. What does it mean?
What about the cows we slaughter who are too sick to walk and then feed to our children in elementary school before they go home to hours and hours of homework that in college we learn was part of a socializing process in which we become progressively racist and measure history in violence.
Why? Is it human nature? Because I've read books that talk about a period of peace before any kind of judeo-christian religion came about but how do they know? Perhaps they weren't recorded.
How can we base everything off of religion? Something we don't even know is there. What if Jesus were Satan and Satan was God, and now he's fucking around with us? What if after life it just ...ends? Why are we sitting around here telling each other the power of something we don't know or even understand and then go on to discuss further how powerful it is BECAUSE we don't understand it? Is that our logic? Is that why we're so fucked up in foreign policy? Because we use our religious logic to conduct affairs? we use words like "evil" and "good" expecting them to be universal and I'm tired of this absolutism.
This "knowledge" of what is good and evil. They are just words. These are just words. So why do they matter?
There is so much more. I need to get my head straight.
The inability to do anything right without starving for having no job, being put in jail for something or other, or having your house searched without a warranty, your phones tapped because you came across a certain website, or even being killed, such as in the case of Bobby Kennedy, and Martin Luther King Jr. Did anyone noticed how those kind of people stopped happening? We're subdued and afraid. I want to change this goddamned government but I don't want to die. Fuck, it's not even about that, I just don't know what to do. i don't know how to rally. I don't think anyone will listen. I don't think anyone will care. Standing out means getting shot, they say.
For all that I am learning in class, I cannot, for the life of me, connect it to reality. I know the power of nonviolent protest, I also know that it wasn't only protesting that ended Vietnam but economically, the US needed to save itself.
I know that we're in so much fucking debt right now that borrowing money from China to "boost" the economy is like the snail and the recession that is heading our direction is the misguided foot that will smash us.
How does money even mean anything anymore. It's all credit. What does money mean if we are 2.4 trillion dollars in debt and still the most "powerful" country? What does money mean if no one can support themselves on minimum wage and are forced to live in rented homes? They never own anything. What does it mean?
What about the cows we slaughter who are too sick to walk and then feed to our children in elementary school before they go home to hours and hours of homework that in college we learn was part of a socializing process in which we become progressively racist and measure history in violence.
Why? Is it human nature? Because I've read books that talk about a period of peace before any kind of judeo-christian religion came about but how do they know? Perhaps they weren't recorded.
How can we base everything off of religion? Something we don't even know is there. What if Jesus were Satan and Satan was God, and now he's fucking around with us? What if after life it just ...ends? Why are we sitting around here telling each other the power of something we don't know or even understand and then go on to discuss further how powerful it is BECAUSE we don't understand it? Is that our logic? Is that why we're so fucked up in foreign policy? Because we use our religious logic to conduct affairs? we use words like "evil" and "good" expecting them to be universal and I'm tired of this absolutism.
This "knowledge" of what is good and evil. They are just words. These are just words. So why do they matter?
There is so much more. I need to get my head straight.